This has been a week of revelations. As I read my classmates comments in the Alliances section I notice that many of them are coming up on due dates for their goals. My first due date is 4/5/17. Looking at this goal I realized that I did not give myself a realistic time frame for this to happen. There were numerous events that happened in my world to prevent this goal from happening. I guess that I could blame it on these things. Digging deeper I realize that I did not do enough to make this goal happen.
Saying that you will do something but not doing it consistently will never get you to any goal that you set for yourself. It looks like my DMP and shapes will now have to be modified. I am going to hold off on the modifications until 4/5/17. My reasons are two-fold. First it is a daily reminder to me of what I need to do. Secondly it is a reminder to not look back. Could this goal have been attainable if I had done everything perfectly? Probably not. No hand smack is necessary. This is all part of the learning curve.
The second thing that I noticed in the Alliances section is how my classmates are overcoming fear. This is a beautiful thing. I applaud each and every one of you that are pushing ahead. Damn the torpedoes. Full speed ahead. You can do this. You have the power within to change your world without.
The third thing is how deeply I am feeling emotions. I have always been very logical and have never been an overly emotional person so this is something very new for me. At first I thought that I was going through menopause. Lol. Then I realized that it was just part of my new journey with MKMMA. I am becoming like Mark J. This emotional roller coaster ride has really changed my world.
Yesterday there was a horrible accident on a local freeway that involved a motorcycle. The police had not yet arrived. Motorists put on their emergency flashers to protect the other drivers and blocked the motorcycle driver with their vehicles to protect him until help could arrive. In many parts of the country or even the world this would be a normal thing to do. That is not the case here in Southern California. This kindness of strangers really impacted me. I felt renewed pride in my fellow mankind. People that are choosing to do the right thing rather than just doing what is best for themselves. I also felt tremendous empathy for the driver of the motorcycle and sympathy for his family. The motorcyclist did not make it. My heart aches for his family.
I always am grateful for my wonderful Honey. His name is Ray. I feel so fortunate that I get to sleep next to him every night. I woke up at about 3:00 am this morning. There were tears streaming down my face. Ray was sleeping soundly next to me. My tears were tears of joy. Joy that I get to spend another day with my wonderful man. In Scroll V it states:
Why have I been allowed to live this extra day when other, far better than I, have departed?
This phrase really hit home with me. Why did the motorcyclist have to die? It could have been anyone on the road. If I had not been delayed in getting to that section of the freeway it could have been me. I feel very blessed and appreciative to have another day here on this beautiful planet with my wonderful Ray, our furry kids, and our family and friends.
Who are you grateful for today?