On Tuesday of this week I had surgery on my right foot. I had what is called a Morton’s Neuroma. Basically it is an inflamed nerve that was causing me a whole lot of discomfort. After dealing with this for approximately 11 months I decided to have it removed. I went to see the surgeon and was truly happy to be there. On the day of surgery I was happy and excited. I thanked everyone that helped me that day and wished them a wonderful day. The staff seemed genuinely surprised that I was so excited and happy to be having surgery.
The surgery was a textbook surgery. No complications. I awoke truly happy. When my Honey Ray came to pick me up he said that I didn’t even look like I had gone through surgery. At first I thought that it was because the surgery center had allowed me to wear makeup but that wasn’t it. I was genuinely glowing. I was so happy that my 11 month ordeal was coming to a close. You see I had great faith in my surgeon and his staff and I knew that everything was going to turn out great.
The day after surgery I began putting weight on my right foot. The next day I drove to the store. Today I tackled steps and an incline going up and down both with ease. Although there has been some discomfort I am doing amazingly well. Unless some type of complication arises I will be back at work Monday afternoon.
I am sure that by now you are wondering why I am telling you about my foot. On Monday I decided that my foot adventure was going to be part of my blog this week. I believe that this adventure of mine may be able to help some of you that are struggling with this course. Most people go into surgery filled with dread. They are scared of something bad happening, scared of the pain after surgery and maybe scared that they may not survive. As we have learned in MKMMA you get what you give. If you are convinced that something bad will happen to you it will. If you are convinced that something good will happen it will. Is it a coincidence that I am doing so well? I know for sure that it is not.
As I stated I was so happy to have this done. It is really no different from doing a presentation that you do not want to do or speaking with your boss about a problem that you would rather not discuss. It doesn’t matter what it is that you prefer not to do. You just have to do it and know that it is all going to be fine. Be happy about the things that scare you. You will get through it and you are going to do great. I believe that there is greatness in each and every one of you. Knock off that cement and let your Golden Buddha shine!!
Mark and Davene have asked us to have faith in what they are teaching us. For some of us that like to control things this has been a bit of a challenge. I have no doubt that they truly believe that they are helping us to learn wonderful things. Things that could potentially have a major impact on each and every one of our lives. Things that would impact our world and the world of those around us. For some people in this class they had early breakthroughs. For others it took a bit longer. For some it doesn’t seem to have happened yet. I have to ask why there is such a variance.
I believe that it all comes down to faith. Some of us have more and some of us have less. I believe that the other thing is permission. Did I gave the surgeon permission to remove the nerve from my foot or did I give myself permission to have the nerve removed from my foot? I think that this is an interesting question. There are people in the medical industry that can fix many things. We are generally eager to get rid of something that is causing us pain whether it is physical, mental or emotional pain. We have given the medical professionals permission to change physical features on our bodies, remove clogs in arteries, remove tumors, replace joints. The list goes on and on.
To most people this is acceptable. Being physically, mentally and emotionally pain-free is a very reasonable request. This is something that everyone should be able to have. If we are so willing to cut out the things that are causing us pain why do we hold on to the painful things that cannot be surgically removed. Things such as fear. I have read many blogs since this class began. It amazes me that so many of my classmates are still afraid to do the things that they know that they must do.
I wish that I could wave a magic wand over every one of you and make the fear go away. Unfortunately, there is no magic wand that can do this for you. You have to do it yourself. It is time for you to give yourself permission to give up your fears. I believe in you. You need to believe in yourself. It is time to do the Superman or Wonder Woman Pose. You’ve got this and you are about to begin the amazing adventure that is the rest of your life.
Have a wonderful week my MKMMA friends!!