Thus far this has been my most challenging week yet. I was so excited to begin reading Scroll II. I followed the instructions. I did not take a sneak peek at Scroll II. I did everything right. When I finally began to read this Scroll my heart sank. My excitement turned to anger and hostility. I knew that eventually we would have to deal with a scroll with this type of requirement. I had hoped that it would not be this soon.
A few weeks ago we were informed that we were to forgive everyone that had ever wronged us. The Law of Forgiveness states that there can be no connection to the Divine mind where anger or resentment against a brother or sister, justified or not, exists. Mark J said that we might not think that we could forgive but that we can. I chose to believe him. I have been trying very hard to forgive a co-worker and it is not going very well.
This person has continued to make my work life challenging for seven years. Three days after the first day of work this new employee displayed deplorable repugnant behavior. I was completely shocked that any of my co-workers would think that this type of behavior was acceptable especially another manager. I wrestled with taking this situation to the owner of the company for ten days. I decided that this was not something that I was comfortable handling on my own so I took it to the owner and the CFO of the company. They sprang into action immediately. In hind sight it was probably more to cover the company than to protect me.
An arbitrator was brought in to interview all parties involved. At this point in time I had worked for my company for over thirteen years. I really felt that I was protecting my company, my fellow employees, customers and vendors from this action ever happening to them. This was the reason that I chose to report it. After the arbitrator finished his interviews he sat down with the owner of the company and the CFO. I was then brought into the meeting. I was informed that no action would be taken against the new manager. I was told that I should not have waited for ten days to report the incident. I was also informed that I was to never speak of this with any of my fellow employees as long as I continued to work for the company. Here’s the big one. I was not allowed any type of retaliation. The arbitrator asked if I wanted an apology from the new manager. I said that I did not. I was 100% convinced that it would not be a sincere apology. I was correct.
What I learned from this is that an employee on the job for one day has exactly the same rights as someone who has been there for years. Although I have never retaliated against this other manager he has retaliated numerous times against me. It seems that the owner of the company is no longer interested in resolving issues. He has one foot out the door for retirement and his two sons have now taken over most of his duties. They also do not seem to have much interest in resolving issues. I figured that if no one else would take care of this situation then God would step in and do what he always does. Apparently God has been busy for the last seven years. Everyone else who has intentionally wronged me in my life has had bad things happen to them. I guess that it is the old eye for an eye situation. I never wished anything bad on anyone it just seemed to happen.
If this manager had worked for me termination would have occurred immediately. I am a Damn the Torpedoes Full Speed Ahead Girl. I would have let the cards fall as they may. I can guarantee you that this was not the first time that this had occurred. I am sure that it happened at the manager’s previous place of employment. Unfortunately statistics show that 85% of people who this happens to never report it. Reporting it or not reporting it seems to have the same effect on the recipient. Loss of interest in their job, taking lots of time off of work, health issues and lack of productivity. I have experienced bits and pieces of all of these things over the years.
Back to Scroll II. I am now required to show love for this horrible excuse for a human being. I went to work and tried the silent “I Love You” on every co-worker that crossed my path. It worked really well. When I finally had to do this for this despicable manager I felt nauseous and thought for sure that I was going to throw up. Then my migraine kicked in. I have no idea how I am going to get through this. I honestly thought about quitting the Master Key Mastermind program. I am having a hard time dragging myself out of bed in the morning and have no desire to go to work.
I spoke with my Honey about this. He suggested that I take a Mulligan on this one. I told him that I could not do that but appreciated his looking out for me. I have spent many hours thinking about what to do and I have finally made my decision. I will get through this one way or another. By doing so I remain in the power position. My DMP will come to fruition and I will leave my current place of employment before December of 2018 and have the wonderful life that I deserve.
Who knows. Maybe God is just waiting for me to forgive before unleashing his wrath on the wrongdoer. Only time will tell.